I just entered my first 5k. May 28th.
Holy shit, I need to start getting my ass in shape.
I am slowly getting myself back into an exercise routine. I have committed to doing a 5k in July with two of my friends. I am on week two of the couch to 5k program. It is slow going. I am seriously out of shape, but I am doing it. I am moving. I jog/briskly walk for a half hour at least three times a week. I am lifting weights again. I am doing yoga. I am doing zumba here and there. I am trying a barre class this weekend.
There is one problem though.
I am not losing weight.
I know why. My eating habits are not good. Every weekend I tell myself I am going to start eating better. And then every Monday afternoon I screw up and eat something terrible and then it just becomes a huge downward spiral of Girl Scout cookies (oh god, those caramel delights are so freaking good), iced coffees loaded with cream and sugar, and last night, last night I ate deliciously fried crab rangoons.
What is my problem? Why can’t I get my shit together and eat right and have some will power?
I know that there is some deep rooted issue here about self-hate vs self-love and I just need to make the conscious effort to take better care of myself, but I am struggling. Big time. I have read about people creating vision boards and putting those intentions out there to see and look at every day. It seems a little hokey to me, but I think I might give it a try. Have any of you ever tried a vision board? If so, did it work?
My life is a constant struggle with my weight. I lose weight, get cocky, start eating like a gluttonous pig and gain it all back again. I am now in the gained it all back again phase. I have finally reached the point where I can’t take looking at myself in a mirror anymore. So here I am, once again, back on the diet train. I am going with the South Beach diet- it is not as limiting as some of the others I have done. My best results have come from Jenny Craig, but I can’t afford it this time around. In an effort to hold myself accountable, I am going to use this blog to do weekly check-ins/updates and perhaps post a recipe here and there.
Of course exercise is a big part of this weight loss journey. I have a gym membership and have been using it very sporadically. I am shooting for at least 5 days a week at the gym. I need to get myself back into a routine. I heard somewhere that you have do something at least 14 times before it becomes a routine. So for the next two weeks I am going to make that extra effort to go, even when I just want to head home and sip that iced coffee on my deck while reading a book.
The ultimate goal here is to lose 25 pounds and to feel better about my reflection in the mirror and how my clothes look on me. Oh yeah, and to be healthy.
April was the month that I was supposed to focus on exercise and drinking more water. Remember those goals I set for each month?
It took me a little while to get into a routine, but somewhere around mid-April I got my groove on. I work out five days a week, no Tuesdays or Sundays. Starting next week I will be able to do Tuesdays again, as this is the last week I have to teach my class at the community college. I have been switching it up a little, some days I run and lift weights and other days I take a step class or a weight lifting class. I have been using the couch to 5k
program while I run on the treadmill and for those of you who want to start running, but have never really run before, I highly recommend it. It eases you into running, slowly progressing each week. I am on week three of the program right now, which means I walk ninety seconds, run ninety seconds, walk three minutes, run three minutes and then repeat. However, what I am really excited about is a fitness boot camp. I have been hearing all about these boot camps and wanted to try one, but my gym didn’t offer that.
I already pay a membership fee at my gym, so I didn’t want to have to pay for another program somewhere else. But then, lo and behold, on Saturday when I was at step class I saw a flyer ro a boot camp starting in mid-May. So yes, I am going to give it a try.
All in all, the working out is going well. I still don’t love it, I don’t think I ever will, but I do love how I feel after and, if I am being honest, I do love the way my arms and legs feel and look. I have muscles and damn, I like them. I like feeling sore, knowing that I worked myself.