Life List #3

One of my lifelong dreams has always been to be a roller derby girl.  I will admit, the first thing that attracted me to this sport was how tough and sexy these women looked.  When I was little I pretty much roller skated everywhere I could.  This might have had something to do with the fact that I didn’t learn to ride a bike until I was in 6th grade, but that’s a whole other story.  When my family left Oregon and moved to Maine I stopped roller skating.  Mainly because it is really hard to skate down a gravel road.  There is a serious lack of pavement and sidewalks in rural Maine, for those of you wondering.

About a month ago I discovered that some of Maine’s retired derby skaters have started a program called Derby Lite.  Derby Lite is a ten week course that helps women develop the skills necessary to play derby.  It is advertised as “roller derby for women old enough to know better.”  They had an open house in August where you could come and watch a practice and see what it was all about.  So, on a whim, I went.  Women of all ages and all sizes showed up.  As I watched them putting on their protective pads and lacing up their skates, I knew.  I could just feel it.  This was the start of something amazing.  So I signed up.

I am three weeks into Derby Lite and I can’t even begin to explain how amazing it is.  It is a full body workout.  Believe me when I say this.  I leave there soaked in sweat and feeling like the most bad ass woman in the world.  The very first lesson we had was on how to fall correctly (did you know there was a correct way to fall?  well, there is.  knees first, if you were wondering) and how to get up from a fall and keep on skating.  Not to sound cliche, but there was a definite deeper lesson there.  Sometimes we fall on our faces, but the important thing is to recover quickly and keep on skating and kicking ass all over the place.  There is so much empowerment in it.  It’s not just about striped socks and witty names, although that helps.  It is about being a stronger, tougher me.  So, even though it has been over 30 years (holy shit, 30 years?!) since I cruised around my neighborhood on my white skates with pom poms, I am skating again and I am loving it.  This journey has only just begun.

A New Day

I’m just going to act like it hasn’t been months and months since I last posted.  Whatever.  I just sometimes feel like my day to day life isn’t all that interesting.  And then I realize, well then, start making your life more interesting.  Do things you want to talk about and share with the world.  So I have created a life list and am going to use this blog to update my progress on this list. My intention here is that each time I do something that is a step toward achieving one of the goals on my list, I will blog about it and keep a running journal of my progress.

Here is the list:

1.  Go to Barcelona

2.  Learn to use my camera

3.  Try out for roller derby

4.  Make a rag quilt

5. Get my second Master’s degree

6.  Foster a child

7. Have my pictures taken professionally

8. Grow my hair out to sock bun length

9. Quit Smoking

10. Take my mother on vacation

11. Follow through on a business idea I have had for a while

12.  Spend a weekend in New York City

13.  Host a fondue dinner party

14.  Spend a week alone in New Mexico

15.  Treat myself to a spa day when I lose 30 pounds

16.  Grow a lemon tree

17.  Take pictures of my niece as a gift to my sister

18.  Get out of debt

19.  Raise pygmy goats

20.  Wear a size 8

21.  Get into a yoga practice

22.  Learn to drive a standard

23.  Take horseback riding lessons

24.  Learn about wines and go to vineyards

25.  Have a small box garden

Me (the librarian):  Can I help you find something?

Student:  I’m looking for a book.

Me:  Well, we happen to have a few of those here in the library.  Are you looking for a particular book?

Student:  (in all seriousness without a trace of sarcasm)  Yeah, I want a book where someone is telling a story.

Me:  (deep breath) (LONG PAUSE because REALLY?  Thanks for narrowing that one day)

Well, let me direct you to our fiction section.

(Are you freaking kidding me?  WHAT ARE THEY TEACHING THESE KIDS????)

Start Weight:  193

Current Weight:  176

Weekly Loss:  3 pounds

Total Loss:  17 pounds

I had a ROUGH week last week.  How I lost 3 pounds, I am not quite sure.  I broke down on Friday and had a bagel with cream cheese and pizza.  Holy carbs!  And then on Saturday during my break from work I had a double cheese burger and fries from McDonalds.  Disgusting, I know.  However, I did manage to get out and walk 3.5 miles twice during the week and I have been pretty good at not snacking, so somehow it all balanced itself out.  I am not excusing the junk food though.  I made poor choices and felt horrible after.  Not worth it.

This weight loss thing, it ain’t easy.  I read so many blogs and see so many other people struggling with the same issues.  It helps to read and hear how other people face the same difficulties that I do and how they cope with them.  Lots of good advice is out there.  And motivation.  Holy hell, you bloggers now how to make me feel guilty with all your running and boot camp blog posts.  So yeah, thanks for the inspiration and for not being afraid to share your struggles.


Last week I stumbled across this blog and have decided to join Definitely RA’s Mission: Put Together challenge.  As you may or may not know, I have a slight obsession with fashion and clothing, so this seemed right up my alley. I have joined the flickr group, my flickr name is a30something if you are interested.  I am excited for this challenge, I have already gone through some of the pictures from previous challenges and there is so much inspiration I can’t even handle it.  I mentioned on a previous post that I just picked up a part-time job at a clothing store and I fear my whole paycheck is going to go right back to the store.I worked yesterday and ended up spending 78 bucks by the time I left.  Oops.  Oh well, a girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do, right?

I don’t want to bore you with a million mirror shots of me, so I think my plan is to post a weekend recap each week of my outfits.  I always feel a little weird posting pictures of myself, it seems to self-indulgent or something.  Plus, I am a long way from my goal weight, but maybe a few months from now I will look back at these pictures and will be able to have visual proof of how much weight I lost.

So, who wants to join this challenge with me?  I would love to see you on there.

Moving on Up

Guess what?  I am moving again.  I found a new place that is literally across the street from work. I can walk to work.  I can come home on my lunch break and see my pups and let them out.  It is a lot more room and my kitchen and living room are no longer the same room.  I can’t even begin to tell you how happy that makes me. And my bedroom?  It has a window seat, swoon!   There is a nice basement too that I already have started making plans for a yoga/meditation room.  ImageImage I

How much do you want to just curl up into that little cave of coziness in the second picture?  I think I can actually do this.  I have a futon mattress.  Just need some big ol’ pillows to make it complete.

So once again I am back to packing everything into boxes and all that fun that comes with that, but I am really looking forward to it, strange as that may sound.  I like the purging process that comes when you move and I love to set up a new space.  Moving forces you to be organized and this girl craves organization.

Start Weight:  193

Current Weight:  179

Total Loss:  14 pounds

I am trying to get myself on a schedule and stick to it.  I have decided part of this schedule will include a weekly weigh-in and post on this weight loss progress.  Last week was vacation and while I thought it would be challenging to stick to the diet, I think I actually did better over vacation than I do during the regular work week.  I found myself eating  a lot less during the day and I was able to devote some time to exercise.  I mapped a nice 5k route to walk and did that four nights over vacation.  I also let my girlfriend convince me to try a spinning class.  Holy hell!  Spinning is some serious work.  I was walking funny for a couple of days

Can we just take a moment and reflect on that total loss?  14 pounds.  That’s a dress size.  Clothes fit and look better.  My spring coat?  I can button it again.  I can’t tell you how happy that makes me.  I am motivated.  It ain’t easy and sure, I want to eat some ice cream, but I am determined to see this through.   I know that weight shouldn’t define how you feel about yourself, but it does.  When I am healthy, I feel better, not just physically but emotionally.  I have more confidence and I know I project that when I feel good in my clothes and with my body.  I am getting there.  I will be there.  The goal is by August, I will be 165.  14 more pounds to go.  Hell, I’ve done that already.  Half-way there baby!!